I’m a little unsure sometimes. I get discouraged. Spiritually, sometimes I feel like I’m battling through distractions, disappointments, and temptations to keep my eyes on God.
However, today I reflect on something I said recently. When asked what my dreams were and what I wished to accomplish, one of the things I said was that I wanted to be rich in experiences. I said that didn’t necessarily mean I had to travel far away or spend a lot of money (though traveling would be nice!). I just wanted to experience many things and be faithful with the opportunities I was given. Reflecting on that conversation with my mom brings quite a bit of encouragement today. Often, when things don’t go the way I thought they would, I blame myself. I think about what I could have done differently to make the situation turn out “right”. Other times, I think about the situations that simply touch my life right now that are on-going and I wonder if they will ever be resolved or made right.
The truth is, these experiences can feel ( & are) heavy at times. But in the same way, they are accomplishing a purpose. And strangely, they are bringing about what I wished for-depth in life experience and character. How could I relate to very many people if I never felt like I made any mistakes? How could I sit with those who are hurting if all I ever knew was happiness? I couldn’t. So, on those days when I feel discouraged and all I see is my shortcomings I hope I will begin to look Up. I hope I look up and rejoice because in the happy as well as the sad, I have a greater hope and joy that rests in Jesus. When I look through this lens, I begin to see that God is working in my experiences, and there is a purpose for me for such a time as this. Don’t lose heart, friends; it’s part of the journey!